Things are going great and I'm loving life! I finally figured out why I was bloated all the time- and the winner is....carrot juice! So now that I banished those orange demons from my juicer, my belly's getting back to normal. My Doc says it's probably an allergic reaction, so I just substituted some wheatgrass and green juice instead. I just hope I don't turn green instead of yellow, because green just doesn't go with my hair color.
Yesterday I took my fat, lazy, dog on a 3 mile walk and had to drag her half way home while cheering her on with "you can do it, Ginger, we're almost home!" I may now be known as the neighborhood nutcase, but I felt great. And today I took a 1 1/2 hour Vinyasa Yoga class and was the most limber person in the room. Not bad for a chick with cancer!
So now if I could just get to bed on time, I'd be batting 1000! Some habits are just so hard to break. Well, I guess it's 10:00 somewhere, right?
Monday, March 31, 2008
Sunday, March 30, 2008
A course in miracles
I think having cancer teaches you many things, some invaluable and some not so much. It's like some kind of lesson taught by a perverse professor who wants you to learn the hard way. So while I'm still not jumping up and down about being put in this class, and I'm looking forward to graduating out of it, at least I'm taking something positive from it.
You have to follow the lesson plan carefully so you don't miss anything because each subsequent lesson builds upon the one before. Somewhere in the midst of the confusion and the frustration, you begin to make some sense of the whole thing and then it just all begins to click. You start to ace your exams and before you know it, you've passed with flying colors.
I know for me somewhere between getting to know coffee in ways I never thought possible (It's never even sent me flowers!), and learning to give myself the heimlich while choking on 25 pills, I've learned some miraculous things about myself and others that I probably wouldn't have without professor C.
First and foremost I've learned that I'm an indestructible, butt-kicking, spitfire who laughs in the face of destruction. Yeah, right! But anyway, I'm definitely braver and stronger than I ever thought I would be. And I also learned who I can and can't count on, and some of that realization has been eye opening. I've forged some pretty strong bonds with some pretty terrific people that I'm so grateful to have on my side.
Another important lesson has been just learning to live for and relish each moment. To appreciate all the people and things that make my life special. To live for now, instead of later. To let go of resentments and judgements. To put myself first. OK, so I haven't aced that one yet. Maybe I should get some tutoring.
You have to follow the lesson plan carefully so you don't miss anything because each subsequent lesson builds upon the one before. Somewhere in the midst of the confusion and the frustration, you begin to make some sense of the whole thing and then it just all begins to click. You start to ace your exams and before you know it, you've passed with flying colors.
I know for me somewhere between getting to know coffee in ways I never thought possible (It's never even sent me flowers!), and learning to give myself the heimlich while choking on 25 pills, I've learned some miraculous things about myself and others that I probably wouldn't have without professor C.
First and foremost I've learned that I'm an indestructible, butt-kicking, spitfire who laughs in the face of destruction. Yeah, right! But anyway, I'm definitely braver and stronger than I ever thought I would be. And I also learned who I can and can't count on, and some of that realization has been eye opening. I've forged some pretty strong bonds with some pretty terrific people that I'm so grateful to have on my side.
Another important lesson has been just learning to live for and relish each moment. To appreciate all the people and things that make my life special. To live for now, instead of later. To let go of resentments and judgements. To put myself first. OK, so I haven't aced that one yet. Maybe I should get some tutoring.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Felony in CancerLand
As I write this it's been just about 48 hours since I've eaten, with the not so notable exception of two oranges. I couldn't finish all my citrus punch yesterday because it felt like it was burning a hole through my esophagus, so I added water and finished it today. The epsom salts gave me such severe stomach distress that I didn't take my dose today. So, now I feel guilty that I cheated and didn't comply with my detox. I feel like the cancer police are going to come and put the cuffs on me. And I'm too weak to resist, so I hope someone bails me out. Well, at least the Reiki circle was a success.
Friday, March 21, 2008
Purge this!
Today is the first day of my five day vacation from the pills, but like always there's a caveat to that- this time the ominously named "Purge".
I started my morning as usual with my "upside down coffee break" and then began my purge. The recipe calls for drinking a tablespoon of epsom salts dissolved in water three times in a one hour period. Simple right? Well, if you've never had the displeasure of drinking epsom salts let me just say that if I was faced with a decision of whether to drink a glass of epsom salts or a glass of my own urine, I would actually have to think about it. I have never questioned compliance with this program until now, but I have to confess that the thought did cross my mind more than once this morning. Actually three times to be exact.
Now with that experience behind me I have to ingest nothing but a gallon of punch made from orange, grapefruit, and lemon juice mixed with water for the rest of the day. A glass every hour in fact. Oh, I forgot- I can eat an orange for dinner. Better pull out the good china for that one.
And I get to repeat the whole process again tomorrow. Pulling out the heavy artillery from my weapons arsenal this time!
On a positive note, I'm going to a Reiki Circle with my fabulous cousin later and my good friend is in from NY. Isn't life great?
I started my morning as usual with my "upside down coffee break" and then began my purge. The recipe calls for drinking a tablespoon of epsom salts dissolved in water three times in a one hour period. Simple right? Well, if you've never had the displeasure of drinking epsom salts let me just say that if I was faced with a decision of whether to drink a glass of epsom salts or a glass of my own urine, I would actually have to think about it. I have never questioned compliance with this program until now, but I have to confess that the thought did cross my mind more than once this morning. Actually three times to be exact.
Now with that experience behind me I have to ingest nothing but a gallon of punch made from orange, grapefruit, and lemon juice mixed with water for the rest of the day. A glass every hour in fact. Oh, I forgot- I can eat an orange for dinner. Better pull out the good china for that one.
And I get to repeat the whole process again tomorrow. Pulling out the heavy artillery from my weapons arsenal this time!
On a positive note, I'm going to a Reiki Circle with my fabulous cousin later and my good friend is in from NY. Isn't life great?
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Having your card confiscated- PRICELESS!
I think the magnetic stripe on my cancer card is damaged. I mean, once in a blue moon I come out of the cancer closet and pull out my cancer card- and it's rejected!
First my son got stopped for riding his dirt bike and the police officer acted like he was public enemy number one. I was just barely able to exchange the cancer card for a get out of jail free card, but the cop was so unimpressed that he still gave him four tickets and a court date. I think I should ask for a credit line increase.
Then I tried to use it to get some medical bills reduced but again- Rejected!
Is this card getting so darn commonplace that the members are no longer afforded any benefits?
Of course I'm just looking forward to the day mine gets permanently confiscated. "Oh sorry miss, but your no-cancer credit's no good here". Who the heck needs the stupid thing anyway!
First my son got stopped for riding his dirt bike and the police officer acted like he was public enemy number one. I was just barely able to exchange the cancer card for a get out of jail free card, but the cop was so unimpressed that he still gave him four tickets and a court date. I think I should ask for a credit line increase.
Then I tried to use it to get some medical bills reduced but again- Rejected!
Is this card getting so darn commonplace that the members are no longer afforded any benefits?
Of course I'm just looking forward to the day mine gets permanently confiscated. "Oh sorry miss, but your no-cancer credit's no good here". Who the heck needs the stupid thing anyway!
Sunday, March 16, 2008
What are you grateful for?
That's what it says on a plate my best friend gave me for my birthday. I had one of the best birthdays I've ever had. I am so grateful for the people I have in my life who help make every day on this earth special. It's amazing how when the chips are down some people just show up so incredibly for you that it takes your breath away. I feel so lucky and blessed to receive and return so much love.
I even took some new pictures so I can post one that actually looks like me. I've changed so much mentally over the last year or so that I figured I may as well reinvent myself physically as well. The best part is that I'm pretty happy with the new me and that's always a good thing!
I even took some new pictures so I can post one that actually looks like me. I've changed so much mentally over the last year or so that I figured I may as well reinvent myself physically as well. The best part is that I'm pretty happy with the new me and that's always a good thing!
Monday, March 10, 2008
Hooray for getting old!
I remember when my birthdays were a big deal. They were cause for a big, celebratory night on the town complete with the requisite post birthday hangover. I'm not quite sure when my birthdays themselves started getting old, but at some point they became something I didn't want to think about let alone celebrate.
Well thank you cancer for making me appreciate my birthdays again. I'm having another one this week and I'm not only looking forward to it, but I'm actually relishing it.
That's right, I'm grateful for getting older. I guess I've realized that the alternative is decidedly less attractive. So yeah, I'm gonna celebrate. I'll be rocking my family room dance floor. I'll drink my veggie juice from a martini glass, eat raw,organic birthday cake, and have a pajama party with my posse.
I'll put birthdays on the list of things I'm grateful for and on the list of things I won't take for granted. Every day is an opportunity to learn and grow, to mess up and get it right. Birthdays are like big, fat curtain calls for the year gone by.
It's all a journey and the ride's as important as the destination.
Happy birthday to me!
Well thank you cancer for making me appreciate my birthdays again. I'm having another one this week and I'm not only looking forward to it, but I'm actually relishing it.
That's right, I'm grateful for getting older. I guess I've realized that the alternative is decidedly less attractive. So yeah, I'm gonna celebrate. I'll be rocking my family room dance floor. I'll drink my veggie juice from a martini glass, eat raw,organic birthday cake, and have a pajama party with my posse.
I'll put birthdays on the list of things I'm grateful for and on the list of things I won't take for granted. Every day is an opportunity to learn and grow, to mess up and get it right. Birthdays are like big, fat curtain calls for the year gone by.
It's all a journey and the ride's as important as the destination.
Happy birthday to me!
Monday, March 3, 2008
Life in the fast lane
I thought I would illustrate a typical day on my program. This is during the 20 days each month that I'm on my enzymes and supplements and has been abridged to include only program-related tasks. Obviously, life still takes place somewhere between the lines (believe it or not).
So hold onto your hats and send the kiddies under cover, cause this is not for the faint of heart! (kidding...Disney is more titallating than my life these days)
Wake up at 3:30AM- take 16 pancreatic enzymes. Roll over and pass out.
Wake up again at 7:20AM- Take 16 enzymes and 2 supplements.
9AM- juice carrots and greens, eat breakfast of raw 14 grain cereal with goji berries, blueberries and blackberries, take 24 supplements and 3 enzymes.
Heat up coffee for morning enema-(made the previous night)
Dry brush skin
11:30AM- take 16 enzymes and 4 supplements
2PM- juice carrots and greens, prepare and eat raw veggie lunch take 1/2 tspn vital 10, 22 supplements, and 3 enzymes.
3:30PM- take 16 enzymes and 4 supplements. Make coffee for afternoon enema.
4:30 afternoon enema
6:30- juice carrots and greens, prepare and eat (mostly) raw veggie dinner. Take 24 supplements and 3 enzymes.
8 PM- take 16 enzymes and 2 supplements. Prepare coffee for morning enema. Prepare raw 14 grain cereal to soak until morning.
9 PM- Salt and soda bath (2X per week), dry brush skin.
11PM- take 16 enzymes and 8 supplements.
3:30AM- lather, rinse, repeat
Well, all that excitement has exhausted me. Goodnight.....
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